lingering

This past week, I had an appointment with an intuitive. It was a pretty amazing experience.

I set up the appointment last month when I asked this woman to participate in the review or proposals for my grant program. She has been working in the field of sexual and domestic violence for over 17 years, but has also become rather well known for her intuitive abilities. She works through massaging the feet. Apparently, the different parts of the feet provide information on various aspects of your life experiences and health. I wasn't sure what to expect, but was quite curious to know what my feet could reveal about me.

After Wednesday's grant review, we decided to meet at her hotel. I was pretty wound up after a difficult discussion, and even my rescue remedy did little to alay my tension. I sat in the hotel room chair, my feet propped on the ottoman. I chose a lotion from a selection of yummy scents, and she began to rub my feet. She instantly picked up on how anxious I was, and said that all she could sense was that I was bursting with nervous energy. She thought it would take my feet a while to warm up to her, and she was right. We chatted while she continued to rub. And then my feet started talking.

As she rubbed the various parts of my feet, she explained how it corresponded with a particular aspect of life or health. The information she was able to glean resonated with me immediately. At one point, she asked if I had ever been diagnosed with a thyroid imbalance. I told her that I have had my thyroid checked several times in the past few years, and that the results have always been within normal limits. She asked why I have had my thyroid checked, and I told her about the miscarriages. A few minutes later, she was working on the part of my feet associated with fertility and reproduction. She said that she could sense the sex of our last baby, and asked if I wanted to know what she was picking up on. I told her to continue, and she proceeded to tell me that she knew our last baby was a boy. I immediately burst into tears and told her that he was in fact a boy and that we had named him Lucas. I shared the meaning of his name (bringer of light) and she began to cry along with me. She said that he was a very happy boy and that he had chosen me to be his mother. I told her that I had known all along that he was a boy and about how validating it was to have the chromosomal analysis confirm the bond we had shared in our short time together.

It brings me great comfort to know that some essence of his spirit still lingers, and that she could so easily sense his energy. I miss you, Lucas.

Comments

[SaraS-P]

That had to be an emotional moment. Lucas's light will linger for quite some time, I would guess.

[Momma Bee]

I have tears in my eyes just reading about this experience. *hugs*

[Artblog]

Hi, just found you and have read your last post. I found it amazing she got it so right and all those things she said about Lucas, it must have been a real comfort to hear. I've often wondered about seeing a clairvoyant of some sort to see if she could tell me anything, or just something comforting like yours did. Anyways, crossing my fingers for your next cycle. Feel free to drop buy some time.

Kind regards

Artblog

[sube]

Oh, crying now.

I'm so happy to have you back and to hear that things are turning around for you. Congrats on quitting your job! Can't wait to hear all the new things afoot for you. (hehe! pun!) Welcome back to blogland.

[Kath]

Dear Nikole, it's so good to hear from you! Congratulations on your big decision -- I hope it will make you very happy and will open up new avenues for you. Sometimes, in all the stress, we lose sight of who we are -- and I'm so glad you're bringing yourself back into focus. I hope, too, that your next cycle brings you everything you hope for.

That story about the clairvoyant was touching. I think sometimes our bodies do scream out, only so few people can understand what they're saying.

[Serenity]

Nikole - first, I am happy to see that you're back. I have thought of you often and have been wondering how you've been. Congratulations on taking the next step with your career.

And this post was truly touching - an amazing tribute to the little boy you carried. I do think his spirit will stay with you for a while.

*HUG*

[Watson]

Hi Nikole,

Welcome back, we missed you!! It sounds like you've been very productive in the last couple of months.

I applaud your decision to leave your job and pursue some other avenues that will be more fulfilling for you.

You sound strong and hopeful, and what better way to approach a new cycle when you're ready!

And I looooved the story about the intuitive, how touching and what a lovely way to reconnect with Lucas...

Much love and I look forward to reading more soon.

[Sami]

I'm glad the experience with the intuitive was so very rewarding... at least in my eyes it was. I hope you felt the same. It's always good to have validation of what you thought... and now you know Lucas wanted you and chose you guys. Know I'm thinking of you guys...

[Ella]

Yay, you're back! We've all missed you. I'm so glad you are feeling up to blogging again. It sounds like you are in a terrific place. it's amazing that you've decided to leave your job and pursue new things. You sound strong and hopeful and we are right there with ya. I love the story about the intuitive - it sounds so touching. I'm glad you are able to connect with Lucas. That must give you such joy in your heart.
Good luck with the next cycle and keep us posted. I wish you only good things!

[Heather L]

Welcome back. I missed you. :) Good luck on your next cycle. Hugs

[Vivien]

Hey Nikole, so good to see you back, and sounding so positive. I know the feeling with the work - sounds like a really healthy change to make. Wishing you all the best and lots of luck with this cycle.