I bought this sweet little ring from the talented and gorgeous and extremely kind Thea Coughlin, whose etsy shop is called Monarch (go get yourself one already!). It seemed to be just the perfect reminder as I was wrestling with all of my very big feelings around having a cesarean birth and facing increasing problems with my muscles. I only wish I had had one sooner. (and while you're on etsy, be sure to check out Thea's beautiful photography, which is nothing short of stunning).
Anyhow, posting a snapshot of this ring seemed especially appropriate today, considering we had a bit of a scare. I started spotting last night and having copious amounts of watery discharge. The spotting was brown, which means old blood and nothing fresh, so although it was heavier than it has been in recent days, I thought I would just go through the night and see how things looked in the morning.
I woke up today feeling really achy and crampy - not too different from how I felt just before the big bleed last week. The spotting had continued, but didn't seem to be any heavier. I tried to take it as easy as possible today, spending much of the day on my side and forgoing my much-anticipated scrub down. We ended up calling the doctor's office, and luckily, our own OB was on call. Her main concern was that my water had broken, but after monitoring things for the rest of the afternoon, I feel certain that no such thing has happened.
For now, things seem to have settled down. Bumble doesn't seem to be getting the message that kicking my placenta is not really in her best interest, so I'm hoping that things continue to remain stable despite her persistent jabs.
I am hopeful that won't have to be on my side all day tomorrow and it will be easier for me to type out some of the jumbled thoughts and emotions that have been knocking around in my head and heart over the past few weeks.
For now, it's back to the bed for what will hopefully be a restful night's sleep.