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August 07, 2006



Hi, Nikole. It sounds like you are doing a lot of processing of grief, and my heart goes out to you, especially since we're in such similar boats.

I have to say, though, that I feel honored to have been in your dream, and I appreciate what you said about my writing (I feel the same way about yours.)

You are in my thoughts and prayers as you work through your feelings and contemplate trying again.


{{hugs}} Thinking of you - and hoping you get a more relaxing night of sleep tonight! Glad the spotting is gone, too.


I really can't think of anything to say to help you feel any better so...
Take care and sending you a big hug.


I'm so sorry. I'm glad to hear the spotting has finally ended. Perhaps with physical healing the emotional healing can begin.

It has been a year for us too. What a terrible anniversary.


I hope the processing you're doing in your dream life helps you in your waking life, even if it leaves you in a fog sometimes. It must be especially difficult right now with all the reminders you've had recently (anniversaries, other people's pregnancies, etc.). Hang in there.


Dear Nikole, those dreams that stay under the surface and cloud one's whole day are awful... I seem to remember a period of very intense dreams too.

Coping with all this is so difficult. I can imagine not being ready to go to that group yet. And of course pregnancies, even among people we love, can floor us sometimes, particularly on painful anniversaries. That's one of the truly sad things in this sad situation, that others' joy becomes bound up in our grief.

I'm glad the bleeding is over now. Wishing you continued healing.


dreams can have a way of staying with you, trying to help you sort out everything that is going through your head. I would have been 14 weeks pregnant today, but I'm considering it progress that I had to look that up.

I'm happy that your bleeding has come to an end. it can seem endless.


It sounds like you are going through a lot of the grief emotions.

The good news is you have stopped spotting. That's good news, good that your body is getting back to some sense of normalcy.

Dreams can be a curse and a blessing. Hopefully you can work through them.

Take care of yourself.

Womb in waiting

Oh Nikole, to awaken in a sad space is a hard way to start the day. It sounds as tho' your psyche is processing quite a lot behind the scenes.
You are so good to be able to feel joy & no jealousy sometimes when your friends announce their pregnancies - youre bigger than me. Lately I havent been able to do it at all...it feels way too hard.

May your dream scape be filled with magic & joy & love to you xx


Nikole - dreams have a way of setting the tone for an entire day, at least for me. I am sorry that you are in such a sad place right now. I wish I could offer you more than words.

Know I am thinking of you... sending you cyber-hugs.


I think the anger and jealousy are totally normal, given the situation. You don't deserve what's happened, and that is so frustrating. It's not fair. It's hard to feel happy for others when you want what they have so badly. Try not to beat yourself up about it. (A certain counselor recommended to me that I go scream in the shower...I still do it sometimes. It helps.)

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